Monday, October 24, 2011

Pics!

Haven't posted any pics in a while so here's a little pictorial update.... :)

 (and internet is MUCH better this year so I'll be able to post more often and more pics....!!)



my hands-down favorite part of Tanzania: children smiling, waving, running in the streets everywhere..... Nothing in the world beats it.



Reuniting with my Bajaj driver friends here was pretty awesome.... The Bajaj world and its drivers: def. one of my fave aspects of life in Dar :)  Love these guys
[this pic was taken at the end of last year, after Laura and I had distributed some devotionals in Swahili to ones we'd made friends with]

{**special shout-out to the other blonde in Africa**}
[Laura isn't here this year :( she's making a difference in the lives of kids who majorly need her in Orange County]
 LG, I miss you like craaaaaaazy!!  Life in TZ is not the same without you!!! 
LOVE YOU!!

Just selling some fully furnished fish tanks....

 transportation in Dar


the new dog in my life, Fluffy :) he's the pet of the new (wonderful!) family that I'm living with here, the Lotterings.... I love this dog!!

 
Dyan Larmey & Me... Words cannot express how much I love this woman and how thankful I am for her!!  Excited to help change the world and the reality of many Africans with her through our work with Karama!


 I was blessed to be able to go camping on the outskirts of Selous Game Reserve this past week with the Larmeys & Lotterings.... a wonderful re-introduction back to life in Africa and a great opportunity to pray, reflect, plan, and vision-cast for this coming year.  
Saw hippos, crocodiles, elephants, giraffes... and lots of the glory of God through His incredible creation.  What an Awesome God.

Friday, October 14, 2011

Listening

As I am back and trying to transition back from life in Dallas to life in Tanzania (too many extreme contrasts to even try to list!), God has been sweetly speaking to me and reminding me of many truths.  Truths which are often easier to grasp here- easier to see and to believe... probably because they often feel so much more necessary to cling to here. 


"We must go through many HARDSHIPS to enter the kingdom of God." Acts 14:22


Paul and Barnabas spoke these words to the churches in Galatia after being persecuted and abused there.  Paul was stoned and drug out of the city, presumed to be dead.  This passage in Acts describes them as being "filled with JOY and the Holy Spirit" (Acts 13:52).  It wasn't in living for themselves or in protecting themselves that they found joy or the filling of the Spirit; it was in enduring hardship and pouring out their lives for the sake of Christ.  THAT is when they were filled with joy and the Spirit. 

As I transition back to my life here in Tanzania, I am once again confronted with all that I must give up and deny in order to fulfill the calling that is on my life here.  Honestly, some of what feels 'hardest' for me to give up right now is hard to admit.  One of the biggest things?  Having pretty, straight, manageable hair.  (ugh, this humidity!!)  I'm sure that sounds petty- and believe me there are many more hardships here that would sound a lot more "honorable" (the incessant & uncomfortable heat, the power outages, running out of water, missing my friends and family....), but right now this is frankly one of the hardest things for me to let go of.  But it's one of the things that I must.  When we follow Him, we must be willing to let go of ANYthing and everything to follow Him.  Big or small... honorable or petty... nothing is worth holding onto when it comes in the way of following Him.


"If anyone would come after me, he must DENY himself and take up his cross and follow me.  For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me and for the gospel will save it." Mark 8:34-35

"And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or fields for my sake will receive a hundred times as much..."  Matthew 19:29


Though it may seem more real for me here in Tanzania to "leave behind houses or brothers or mother" for the sake of Christ... to "lose my life"... it is a calling on all of us.  And when we fail to do so, we are not only forsaking Him, but we are deceiving ourselves. We are clinging to our lives, where we will NEVER find life.  Not true life.  Not the abundant life He offers.  It is in dying to ourselves, sacrificing our lives, spending ourselves on behalf of others, where we find true life.  Never when we cling to our lives or to what we think will make us happy.  It is in giving that we receive.  In pouring ourselves out that we are poured into.  In sacrificing that we are satisfied.


"If you *spend yourselves* in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the noonday.  The Lord will guide you always; He will satisfy your needs... You will be like a well-watered garden... you will be called Repairer... Restorer." Isaiah 58:10-12


Pouring myself out?  Sacrificing my desires?  Giving instead of receiving?  The ways of His kingdom are so contrary to how we naturally think and believe.  Yet they are TRUTH.  And in following them, we find lasting satisfaction. 

Jesus came to live as a servant.  Nothing about His life was spent to make Himself "happy".  He poured out His life... Offered Himself as a continual sacrifice... Endured incredible hardships.  And when I experience hardship for His Name and for His sake, I come face to face with HIM.  I come to know Him more.  I come to experience Him more.  I feel His presence more.  (1 Peter 4:12-14) .... And He fills my longing soul.


Thank you, Lord, for reminding me of these truths.  Thank you for calling me here.  And for all that you have entrusted me with.... which is MUCH.  May I use the time, resources, responsibilities, relationships, and influence you have put in my life in ways that honor and glorify You.  To whom much is given, much is required.... May I live this life worthy of your calling. Thank you for reminding me of these seemingly 'contrary' truths of your Kingdom.  In them I find Life, and in them I find YOU.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Back in Dar!

Hello, Blog!  It has been a while.  I meant to update over the summer but that didn't exactly happen.... Hope some of you still read this!  I just got back in Dar today (yesterday? messed up with the jetlag...) and it is good to be back.  I had a wonderful 3 months in Dallas (and traveling all over!) for the summer and am SO thankful for that time.  It did make it a little hard to leave.... I'd just been there long enough for it to feel like "home" again so it was hard saying my good-byes, but I figure I can't complain that I have 2 wonderful places I can now call home full of so many loved ones! 

I am really looking forward to the new role I will have this year and to the potential before me to create lasting change for so many people here through Karama (more of an update on Karama and my new role to come).  And I am so incredibly thankful for my faithful and generous friends and supporters in the States who have made it possible for me to come back here.... I truly could not be here and do this work without you!!  You are a part of this, too!

I'll write more soon.... And plan on blogging more this year.... but wanted to at least give the update that I'm back!  Excited for the year and all that is in store.... It will be different in a lot of ways than last year and I am excited to see those changes pan out and to see what God does from here.  I do miss my friends and family in the States so you can pray for my transition time back here.... But I also foresee a lot more Skype this year than I did last year so plan on that, friends! :)

The verses God gave me for this coming year: 

**Delight yourself in the Lord** and He will give you the desires of your heart.  Commit your ways to him, trust in Him, and He will do this:  He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn and **the justice of your cause** like the noonday sun. ~Psalm 37:4-5 

What good words.  Thank you, God. :)  I can't wait to delight more in HIM this year and to see His justice done through the work I am a part of!

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Another Devotional

Here is another devotional I wrote in the same series back in March.  Thought I would post it here now, too, while I was posting the other one...  This one is on Matthew 23:13-36 and the Pharisees' hypocritical attitudes (and our sometimes frighteningly similar qualities):


Join the Journey Devo. March 29

Devotional

So, I haven't exactly done my job of keeping up with my blog this summer while I'm home.... :-/  But I wanted to link a devotional I wrote for my church's devotional series (which is going through the Gospels this year).... It is on Luke Ch. 7 (v. 18-35) and John the Baptist's doubts while imprisoned (and the doubts that we carry)...  Hope you enjoy!

Join the Journey Devo. Aug. 1

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Update on Esther

Just a quick update on Esther and on God's faithfulness....

Literally within 5 minutes of posting that last blog post, a good friend of mine in Dar called me saying that she saw my blog post and was in need of a new houseworker because hers had moved.  So without missing a beat or a day of employment, Esther was/is now employed in a situation that could not be more of a blessing!!  I am SO incredibly thankful for God's faithfulness (and for my friend who saw the need and responded in her typical always-finding-a-way-to-be-a-blessing manner :)) ...  Esther now has continued work, is starting English and cooking classes under my friend's leading (which will give her lifelong skills that will continue to make her employable), and is in a family situation which I *know* will be a MAJOR blessing to her.  Thank you all for your prayers and for caring about sweet Esther!! :)

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Esther

One of the greatest blessings and greatest ways I believe God has used me this year (along with my TZ bestie Laura) is in the life of our houseworker Esther.  Esther is a beautiful, hard-working, God-loving woman who cleans our house 3 days a week.  [If you're thinking life here sounds pretty easy that we have a regular houseworker, please know the most important factors in the situation: 1. This allows for employment in a land where work is very hard to come by and the majority of the population is living below the extreme poverty line, 2. This gives us the opportunity to have a relationship with and make the difference in the life or lives of Tanzanian individuals, and 3. Living here can be really hard at times and the extra help really is helpful!  We're a lot more adjusted now and could live without a houseworker (though we wouldn't want to b/c of the relationships it allows us to have) but at the beginning of the year... learning how to boil & filter all of our water, thoroughly clean veggies, cook everything from scratch, wash clothes by hand when power's out, etc. etc. ... was a little too much to learn off the bat on our own without the help of our wonderful househelper(s).]  We do also have another househelper, Jacki, who comes and helps us out on Saturdays.  We really don't "need" the extra help from her, but she is a beloved friend and Tanzanian neighbor who was in need of more work so we decided to have her help us one extra day a week.  The cost to pay these women is so low (due to Tanzanian standards of living and reasonable wages here) that it barely affects us to have a little extra help, while it goes a long way to provide for these women and their families.

So.... Esther.  Quite frankly, there were some problems in her previous work situation and how she was being seen and treated. I will not go into details, but there were.  Nothing huge or abusive, but oppression in its most subtle and sneaky forms.  Oppression and dishonor were rearing their ugly heads, and I could not overlook it.  God wouldn't let me overlook it.... He continued to place her on my heart, day after day, and bring to my Spirit the truths in His word about her... about the poor, about the needy, about the oppressed.... about the very reason He brought me here to Africa.  Jeremiah 22:16 says "'He defended the cause of the poor and needy, and so all went well.  Is THAT not what it means to know Me?' declares the Lord."  God very clearly and very strongly put Esther on both Laura's and my hearts (have I mentioned how incredibly thankful I am for Laura?!) and ended up using us to *defend the cause* of her, a poor and needy woman in Tanzania.  He used us to fight for her honor and her dignity and to assure that she was being treated with dignity, respect, and honor and being paid fair wages.

Over the course of the year, as Laura and I have striven to treat her with dignity, to show her the value we place on her life and on her service, her demeanor has changed greatly.  She now sings while she works in our home, she beams from ear to ear when she sees us, and she glows with a bright smile that comes only from a joy deep within.  Sadly, these traits did not characterize her work at the beginning of the year.  They were far from characteristic of her demeanor.  But through God's love and service being poured out through Laura and me into her life, He has worked healing and blessing and love over her.

This past weekend, Laura and I went to visit Esther in her home.  We felt that this was important, in order to show her that we truly "see" her.  That we see her home, her daily life, who she is and what her life is made of.  That we care enough to *know* these things.

So Saturday afternoon, after she finished working at our house, we traveled with her by daladala (super-cramped/most-people-standing-up bus) to her home.  We traveled the long 45min-1hr daladala ride (most of it standing) to her neighborhood, and then walked the long road down to her home (10-15 min. walk).  The hour-long commute she makes to and from work everyday in order to make daily wages that would only buy us a meal at a fast-food restaurant.

As we walked down this long road, so many emotions were welling-up inside me that I just wanted to walk off on my own and *bawl*.  To let the tears just come rushing forth.  The hard work that this woman gives everyday (she also works for another family a couple days a week).  The long and arduous commute that she undertakes daily.  The little impoverished-corner of the world that she lives in.  All to make enough money for her daily rice and beans.  Walking down that road and knowing with most probability that none of her previous employers have done this.... have seen where she lived and have thus "seen her"... To know in that moment how much that must have meant to her.... It was almost too much to bear.

Once we arrived at her home, we were greeted by playful children running around, neighbors living in community, each (family) living in their own "room" in these attached concrete-block homes.  Esther's home: a one-bedroom room, which is probably 7'x7' in size, with no bathroom and no kitchen.  A bed in the corner and a little "dining table" (i.e. a low coffee table with some small wooden stools around it) on the other side.  She had 3 small woven baskets hanging on the walls as decoration, and so few material possessions to her name that I could count them on my 2 hands.  A Bible on her dining table (2 Bibles actually, one given to her by our wonderful former housemate Marie).  A Bible verse hung on the wall (the verse was Hebrews 13:2 "Do not forget to entertain strangers, for by so doing some people have entertained angels without knowing it." Oh the beautiful irony and symbolism here.... I know God was smiling down....).  She had placed nicely embroidered fabric over her table and stools and draped it across the pile of stuff in her corner (clothes, pots & pans) to make it look "nicer"... fabric which was clearly only brought out for the most special of occasions and likely even borrowed from a friend.

As we sat in her small home, seeing where and how she has lived for the past 10 years, we spoke with her in our very minimal and broken Swahili.  We pulled out our Swahili dictionary and looked up words we needed.... we surely butchered our grammar.... but we did our best, God helped filled in the rest, and we were able to have a beautiful time of conversation and relationship.  Laura complimented one of the baskets hanging on her wall, and you know what Esther did in that moment?  She took 2 of them down and gave them to us as gifts.  Oh, the tears are coming now as I write this.  2 of the 3 decorative items that she owned, she took down and GAVE to us.  To us blonde city-girls who live in a big home, with so much jewelry that she can't even dust around it.... and she gave us 2 of the very-few possessions to her name.

We prayed with and over her before we left, and in that moment I know that God worked in even greater ways than He already has this year.  We prayed that she would find continued employment as Laura and I both move on this next year and will not need her, that she will find employers who honor her and treat her with respect and dignity.  That He will bless her in her inmost being with the spiritual riches of Love, Joy, Peace.  That He will provide for her *every* need.  Please continue to pray these things with me.

There were many tears, many smiles, much laughter, and much love on this day.

Oh, I will not soon forget this day.

And even now, as I look back on this situation, I am so humbled to the core at the reality of what God has done here.  A beautiful woman that He loves, living in an impoverished slum area in the middle of impoverished Dar es Salaam, Tanzania.  In the middle of Africa.  This woman living in a one-room home, living hand-to-mouth, with so few possessions to her name.  Day after day, year after year, working hard and loving God as she returns to her home at the end of each day in this tiny poverty-stricken corner of the world.  And My good Lord looked down and cared so much about her that He chose to take 2 blonde city-girls living in 2 of the biggest and most materialistic cities in the world- Dallas and Los Angeles- to pick them up and transplant them here to Dar es Salaam, Tanzania, so that He could use them to bless and change the life of this one woman that He loves.... neglected and forgotten, oppressed.... He transplanted us into her little corner of the world because of the value He places on her and on her life and the great love that He has for her.  That He would choose ME.  I am so humbled.

As Hagar proclaimed, "You are the God who sees me... I have now seen the One who sees me." (Genesis 16:13)  Oh, our God is one who SEES us.  How awesome is He.

Esther's Home


Me, Esther, & Laura


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"'He defended the cause of the poor and needy, and so *all went well*.  Is THAT not what it means to know me?' declares the Lord." -Jeremiah 22:16